SORRY!!!!!!!

SO I HAVEN'T POSTED ANYTHING IN A WHILE AND I GUESS IT IS BECAUSE  I HAVE SO MUCH ON MY MIND. FIRST THING BEING THE FACT THAT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE IS MILES AWAY AND IT FEELS LIKE WITH EVERY SECOND WE  ARE APART I LOSE A PIECE OF MYSELF. SECOND PROBLEM BEING THAT I THINK I'M STUDYING THE WRONG THING BECAUSE I DONT SEE MYSELF BEHIND A DESK OR IN A SUIT RUNNING A COMPANY. I WANT TO BE IN FRONT OF THE TV DOING SOMETHING BIG AND SHARING PERSONALITY WITH THE WORLD. WHEN WE GET TO A CERTAIN AGE WE ARE EXPECTED TO KNOW WHAT WE WANT TO BE AND I GUESS THEY ARE RIGHT BUT WHAT IF U REALLY DONT KNOW OR YOU KNOW BUT GETTING THERE IS A PROBLEM.