WHEN I'M DOWN

MY MOTHER IS BEEN IN AND OUT HOSPITAL EVER SINCE I WAS IN GRADE 6 AND IT WAS SO HARD TO KEEP IT TOGETHER BUT I ALWAYS HAD MY GRADMOTHER TO LOOK AFTER ME BUT IT STILL HURT. NOW THAT I AM ALL GROWN UP  I HAVE TO LOOK AFTER HER MYSELF AND SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO LOSE HER. SOMETIMES WHEN SHE IS SLEEPING I OPEN THE DOOR JUST TO TAKE A LOOK AND CHECK IF SHE IS BREATHING. MY BIGGEST FEAR IS TO LOSE MY MOTHER. SHE IS MY ROCK, MY LIFE, AND MY NUMBER ONE FAN.WHEN I FEEL DOWN ALL I DO IS PLAY SOME RIHANNA AND ALL IS WEEL...

THAT IS MY MOM.

SHE PUTS A SMILE ON MY FACE

SORRY!!!!!!!

SO I HAVEN'T POSTED ANYTHING IN A WHILE AND I GUESS IT IS BECAUSE  I HAVE SO MUCH ON MY MIND. FIRST THING BEING THE FACT THAT THE LOVE OF MY LIFE IS MILES AWAY AND IT FEELS LIKE WITH EVERY SECOND WE  ARE APART I LOSE A PIECE OF MYSELF. SECOND PROBLEM BEING THAT I THINK I'M STUDYING THE WRONG THING BECAUSE I DONT SEE MYSELF BEHIND A DESK OR IN A SUIT RUNNING A COMPANY. I WANT TO BE IN FRONT OF THE TV DOING SOMETHING BIG AND SHARING PERSONALITY WITH THE WORLD. WHEN WE GET TO A CERTAIN AGE WE ARE EXPECTED TO KNOW WHAT WE WANT TO BE AND I GUESS THEY ARE RIGHT BUT WHAT IF U REALLY DONT KNOW OR YOU KNOW BUT GETTING THERE IS A PROBLEM.

MY HEART BLEEDS

Well life can suck at times... On Thursday i was chilling with the girls getting high, and i had an emotional moment where i was telling my friend a lot of shit. i feel bad that it came out like that but it was things that need to be said... Worst case is that my baby left for a hole month it is really sad. I wonder how i'm supoosed to carry on with life when i have build my whole life around him.

LOVE WITHOUT TRAGEDY

"I'LL BE A STAR, YOU KEEP DIRECTING ME
LET'S MAKE THE BEST SCENE THEY'VE EVER SEEN
LET'S CAPTURE THE MOMENT
CAUSE EVEN FOREVER AINT FOREVER"



THIS SONG IS WOOOOOOWW!!!!!!!!!

THANK YOU RIRI...

There comes a time in life where you realise what is important and what is not. I find myself trying to find out what is important to me and the only thing that is clear at the moment is my HAPPINESS. The things that make me happy are RARE and SPECIAL.
1. GOD
2.MY FAMILY
3.MY FRIENDS
4.MY MAN

Just me

Growing up i was raised by my grandmother because soon after my mother gave birth to me my father walked out on us so she had to go back to work. Growing up around my grandmother was the best thing that could have happened to me. The morals i keep and choices i make today are because of what she taught me. I just wish and pry that GOD keeps her around long enough, so that she can see all that i become and accomplish.  THANK YOU GRANNY

THIS IS NOT FAIR

When i started this blog i wanted a platform where i could express myself and share my story with the world. my last post was about my love life and i know it sounds complicated and stuff. I understand how people could think GINO is bad guy but i will stand up for him and say i know his not perfect  actually his far from it but with all his imperfections i would not change  anything  about him. oohhh yea by the way GINO IS THE SAME PERSON AS TSHIAMO.

I love this boy with all my heart and there is nothing i would not do for him. I would lose some friends and have the world hate me for being with him. I know this is not a movie its real life but i will no longer feel guilty for living my life. Baby i want you to know that you dont have to feel bad for being with me. I have never asked you for anything, right now i ask that we stop hiding........ KIAMO